The equinox is back in in town, and this is the one that
points to brighter days: the literal kind. The metaphorical sort remains to be
seen. In some ways brightness can be a
modest virtue. At least until nature’s green camouflage returns in force, the
scenery in the ever more abundant light is not altogether pretty.
As the residue of the final (I hope) snowstorm of March melts
away in this part of the world, what lies beneath emerges. Much of the grounds
on my property is a mess. The broken branches that litter the lawn can be tidied
up without too much trouble, of course, while verdant regrowth soon will soften
the appearance of shattered trees and brown patches. The human artifacts,
however, do not regenerate themselves with exposure to a little water and
sunlight; on the contrary they’ll just accelerate the decay. Retaining walls
crumble, siding rots, shingles curl, and asphalt cracks. Inside my home appliances
fail, carpets fray, and furniture sags. Entropy chuckles.
First Law of Thermodynamics: You can’t win.
Second Law: You can’t break even.
Entropy always wins in the end, but we do what we can to
delay the inevitable. Fresh shingles, cedar siding, and Type S mortar await
my hammer and trowel outside. The inside deterioration I’ll address to the
extent my wallet allows.
The Second Law applies not just to human artifacts but to humans. Telomeres
will tell. My mirror isn’t giving me the best of news these days, and spring
won’t help much with that. Maybe a little. More fresh air and sunshine won’t
hurt, but they won’t reverse the general trend. I still can see the 17-year-old
in the face looking back at me from the mirror, but I doubt anyone else can see
him.
“Rage, rage against the dying of the light,” said not my
generation’s Dylan but that other guy. I think not. I’d rather just take it in
my totter instead. Entropy’s assault on my house and grounds, however, will
feel my wrath. Well, my hammer and trowel anyway.
Kelly Osbourne – Entropy
Passion is a young person's game. Older people get wiser (or are supposed to). Self-sufficiency sometimes provides happiness for a job well done, if not for a lot of elbow grease. I like it when I feel like I've accomplished something, but that has ups and downs too. Some jobs are not so easy and it feels like you spend too much time on one job without that great of results. I guess that's life.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I wish I still had some of my younger vitality, but it's gone. I'm left with pacing, and that's okay if kept in stride. I guess there's a virtue in that too.
I almost titled this one "Persephone Shrugged." Persuading myself to start those repairs takes finer rhetorical skill than it once did, but, yes, there is some satisfaction in them once they are underway. Pacing is good.
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