At a time when hurricanes lash to the south and north, it is
trivial to note that autumn arrived on the 22nd last week accompanied
by an abrupt change of local weather in NJ from balmy late summery to crispy
fall-like. Nonetheless it did. A cold wind chilled in the morning. We may
yet get toasty days (maybe even weeks) before frost settles in, but they will
be short-lived checks on the general decline of the number displayed by the thermometer
that hangs outside my back door.
Though a plurality of Americans tell pollsters that autumn
is their favorite season, it is not mine. (I admit that Halloween and
Thanksgiving are fun holidays, but they would be just as fun were they
celebrated at any other time of year.) As I grow older I cling to summer
longer. I ignore the “unofficial end of summer” on Labor Day (for non-American
readers, that is the first Monday in September) as artificial. If temperatures
permit the self-deception I ignore the equinox itself. I can’t ignore the
closing of the pool. That happened today, so summer is over, even for me. I’ll
soon be raking leaves. Then comes the solstice, but I hardly want to think of
that now.
An abominable awareness
Of the soles of my feet. They
Are sand-stung, unused
To pebbly lake bottoms, pine needle
Beds –
My feet sting and my breath
Draws deeply, nostrils
Flared to absorb
The air that forces
Coolness into well-heated lungs –
The twilight turns the
Sun from bright to
Smoldering metallic rose and
Seething wavelets draw the
Fury down
To the level of docks, and lake and sand –
And me –
I stick a toe into the pinkness
And it numbs –
The ruggedness of all I feel
Intrigues me; I am a match
For the brittle dusk
Is dying, a burnt-wood smell
Drifts into the sun – I watch
It sink, impaled for a time
On a mountaintop –
Waves of purple, vermilion
And green shoot up
To the clouds
In a symphony of
Lonely light –
I turn to replenish the fire.
Buck 69 – Cold Wind